oh Today it seems finished. What do you mean, mama? What are you doing? Why are you in here mama? I'm not a kid anymore, mama, I know. I know what you need. You're my mama. Oh, yeah. Oh, my gosh. I used to think I had these. But, I don't know. I've been waiting. I've been waiting ever since Dad was gone. Oh man. I'm so sad. Mom. I realized, I never realized how lonely I was until, I don't know. I'm very beautiful, Mom. I love you too. Can I? I can lay with you. I can lay with you? Can I hold you a little bit too? The way maybe Daddy would have? Okay, Mom. I'm so lonely. Oh, Mom. So, I don't know what we were worried about. I just, you know, I do. I don't care, Mom. Remember when I caught you in the shower and I just kind of stood there and got in? I don't care, Mom. I liked it. I didn't care what anybody said. I really want to try something, Mom. The other girls don't want me. I just want her to try something with you, Mom. I don't think so. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. You were supposed to make me happy if I was your son. I just wanted to touch you, Mom. I don't know. I don't know if there's anybody else in the world that I want to touch but you, Mom. Hmm. Don't give me that look, Mom. I love you. I love you. I love you too, son. I promise. I promise I'd always love you, Mom. I'm a real nice guy. I don't think my body is there. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I don't care, Mom. I've been thinking about this for a while and I'm going to do it. If you really didn't want to do it, you would stop me. Hmm? I don't care, Mom. I think about this when I'm sober. I think about this more beautifully than I thought, Mom. I've wondered what this looked like for a while, Mom. Sometimes when I'd see you walking around the house, I just wonder, even as a little kid, Give me a kiss, Mom. I promise you I'll never leave you. I don't want to go blind. Is that really a joke, Mom? Are you serious? I'm sorry. This is so wrong. I'm trying to flash off like nobody here. Dad left. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. My brother and sister are three kids and you're still... I'm sorry, Mom. I've only looked for so long, Mom, before I just... I love you. I love you, Mom. I really love you, Mom. I don't care what they think. I don't care what they think.